Crazy Life

     "Have you ever been lonely, have you ever been blue?"  Patsy Cline      I have experienced loneliness at times in my life. Fortunately  I have the personality of a puppy. I want everyone to play with me so loneliness never lasts long. Sometimes you can be lonely in a crowd and sometimes you can be lonely in a marriage.      Life today is full of people but physical proximity does not necessarily cure social isolation. Do you know any shopaholics? Could they be trying to buy happiness by filling gaps in their lives? Albert Einstein said  " It is strange to be known so universally and yet be so lonely." Even fame does not guarantee happy relationships with others.      Solitude is not the same as loneliness. Solitude is generally a choice, a choice to forego the company of others. It can be a time to be creative, to refresh, to meditate and pray.      Loneliness is usually not voluntary. It can be triggered by a loss such as death or divorce, moving to a

     Several years ago I began writing a book. It was about the life of a small group of people post pandemic. Actually I started two books with different characters and circumstances. Several hundred pages into the first one I realized it was totally ridiculous and the second one only slightly less so.  I finished neither. Not a surprise since I have a life time of half finished projects behind me.       So here we are, 8 years later in a real life pandemic. I have not buried bodies or searched houses for food and medication or journeyed hundreds of miles on foot. This is not pandemic of the deadly proportions I had imagined.       It is serious enough to make me postpone a visit to my newborn grandchild. I coughed this morning and I felt hot. I am in Florida where it is 90 degrees today. Paranoia. I was going to leave here, my husband already has headed north. Here, I am all alone. I am a danger to no one and no one is a danger to me. I speak to neighbors. Most of them will be l